Admittedly, I tend to deviate from the norms of social behavior when it comes to things like cute puppies and love stories. However, for others to use these arbitrary actions as markers of my personality is, in a way, unfair. Instead of shedding tears in response to fictitious situatons, I prefer to save them for moments that truly deserve them.
This past week, my classmates and I took a tour of the synagogues in Prague. There was one in particular that is sure to later identify itself as unforgettab. Upon entiering this synagogue, you were immediately encapsulated by the names of the thousands of Jewish people killed during the war. Walls covered in yellow, red, and black ink, you could not help but recognize the vastness of the destruction. In every direction you were faced with death.
The second floor of the synagogue brought on another flood of emotion. With more walls covered, I pointed out the last names of people I know and wondered if these were their ancestors. I then waited in line to enter a tiny room. This room housed pictures children drew of the concentration camps. I glanced at about three of the drawings and as soon as I realized what they were, I left. It was so heartbreakingly sad to see such bright colors used to depict such gray scenes. This was a situation in which tears are necessary. I exited the room quickly feeling deeply disturbed and visualizing how happily those children must have drawn those pictures. As I write these words, my eyes are swelling with tears. It is an immensely depressing and joyous to think that these children had no knowledge of their fate and could live their last moments carefree.
Now, I would like to make it clear that I am not cold-hearted. My insistence on keeping my feet planted to the ground when others drop to their knees at the sight of a cute puppy is a fearful response indicative of someone that has been bitten long ago. When I don´t cry at happy endings, it is because I would rather focus on the happiness instead of the ending. And now I know that my philosophy for fictitious situations can now be applied to reality. So, for this one moment that is sure to identify itself as unforgettable, I will focus the childrens happiness and not their ending.